How being Morose can KILL you! Always Sad?
Why am I always sad? Why I cannot enjoy anything around me? We get these questions often from all the generations.
I didn’t know when I became Morose. To the world, I was (still am) the most lively and charming person. But deep inside, I was keeping all my sorrow that I couldn’t handle later.
Having emotions is not bad. But having intense emotions can hurt you a lot of pieces by pieces.
The issue of being morose is that you lose the capabilities of reading through your thoughts. At this point, you have already gathered so many sorrows that you cannot find a single reason — Why the hell am I sad?!!! It is difficult to come to a conclusion.
“Often it feels like I am breathing today only because a few years back I had no idea which nerve to cut…”
― Sanhita Baruah
My Story: Only me and my brother are left to take care of each other in my family since our parents passed away. However, I am strong! That is what I am known for. But the truth is I haven’t accepted many bitter facts of my life. Deep inside, I can still not recollect myself, though I am a well-portrayed person in my family. But only the closest people know that I am morose. And to be honest, I didn’t realize it. And when I started feeling that I am always sad and cannot enjoy anything. I had NO clarity, why is it happening? Or What is the exact reason behind it?
BUT! Being sad always can kill you — Your soul.
Hence, I decided to recognize the beautiful people I have around me standing by my side, to support me always. I understand it is difficult because we feel nothing pleasant out of anything being morose. However, there is no harm in trying. So I tried too.
What happened after this? It is a sad story. I shut myself. Because people can listen to it once or twice, but there will be a time when they will start ignoring or getting irritating. A few people can also make a joke out of it. And that’s when I stopped sharing.
However, shutting myself was the even worse thing to do! Because I had not accepted yet. I had just kept it all inside, which was bursting out when I was alone. And it started killing myself. I was not that creative or charming anymore, and other people had begun to feel the aura around me. It was turning dark.
I understood that this is the fight with myself, and only I can help myself. But no one else.
People around us can be our weapon. But the gun is nothing without our will!
I knew that I had to have my own guts to fight back and understand myself. So,
I started meditating — not like a typical meditation show on the TV like having a dark room and sitting in Asana. I looked for a quiet time for myself when I could see through deep inside me. The answers were clear.
After this, the very first thing I did is to stop myself shutting and hurting anymore. Because I knew now what is going on and all the reasons for my sadness. The toughest part was to accept it. And move ON! I put all my effort into helping myself. I started looking for self-Improvement books & articles. Those helped me understand how others are doing it. Brought all my charm back by focusing on doing what I have always wanted to do. I started enjoying myself and loving myself. So, I have finally ACCEPTED Myself.
In simple words,
Accept yourself for who you are and work on yourself to be better every single day. — Our soul to all of us.
If you have watched the movie “MOANA,” you would remember the consequences on earth and the people when the “Heart” of the mother nature was stolen. Moreover, that monster was her! ☹
So, do not let your heart taken away by any obstacle that comes to your way.
That’s how I started my journey. FROM STOP KILLING MYSELF TO LIVING THE LIFE. In this world, who doesn’t have difficulties, fear, Stress. But again, who doesn’t have a smile & happiness.
So love, hate, Anger, Shy, Blush — have all the emotions among you, but do not let them control you.
I have written one more article on “Stop being an Emotional Fool,” you can read that if you wish to know more about emotions.
I wish you a great life ahead. Be happy :)